6th March 2020 at 16:30 #1103GHParticipant
As title says, this time I have life question, and not guitar gear question …
I, same as you, have extremely hard time with life.
And , I just broke up with my girlfriend.
And honestly, you are, for some reason, the first person which came to my mind to ask advice about that.
I’m not getting back with her ….
I just have a really hard time with life.
About like, half year ago, life became wierd, hard and complicated for me.
I mean, life circumstances were always garbage in my life.
But like, half year ago it started to go really badly.
I’m mentally squezzed like lemon for lemonade. I’m mentally soo tired and empty cause people did drain my mental energy from me.
And brake up came to me as a kinda “shock” ….
I mean, I knew we had lot of problems , and I knew this was going to happen anyway.
But it left me with huge sence of loss.
I know we two don’t work out as a couple.
But part of me died that day.
I’m really not suprised with breakup.
It just caught me on wrong leg in morning, as that saying says.
I have problems with … not us two.
But kinda, replacing my life with someone I could trust.
I just feel so lost.
I’m not looking for like, replacement relationship.
I just miss some sence of belonging somewhere. Or having sence of purpose.
That I did something out of myself, that I did something good for someone.
That I found my place on sunlight under blue sky.
But I have a really hard time finding that. Extremely hard time.
I know that you said that stuff in life happends on like, “universe mistake”, “mistakes in matrix” and stuff like that, random mistake in universe.
I also know that …. God himself doesn’t give people challenges which they can’t pass.
But as Chester Bennington would say:
” Why is everything so heavy, soo much more then I can carry …. ”
I lost my way ….
I wanna know, how do you keep yourself okey in terms of life stuff?
I turned myself to hobbies, and I work that stuff.
I’m just trying to find my … sence of belonging.
And I have a really hard time with that.
I always kinda thought that, miracles in world do happen ….
And I did patiently went day by day in my life.
But now I’m just mentally exauhsted.
And I have a hard time recharging my batteries.
I just wanna like, find something, which would make me happy, and that it won’t like, slip out of my hand in like 2 minutes after.
Everywhere I go, everything I do, is just that …..
A sence of not belonging there. And that feeling just won’t go away.
I really wanna know how do you handle all this.
People did make fun of me tons of times. For literally everything they could dig out or find.
With girls I have a hard time.
My basic relationships with other people went to s**t.
I guess when you play guitar, the other stuff just dissappear for you.
But how did you get like to that stage of life? Where you have like 1 thing, and when you do it, other things don’t matter at all.
I really wanna know all of this.
Sry for a long text.
But you are really first person which came to my mind.
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